How I Attained P3rfection
- emilyhawkins28
- Mar 18, 2019
- 2 min read
I can think of two specific times in my life where I tried to define perfection.
The first time I was 12. I thought if I wore the clothes, listened to the music and used the slang of the popular girls I would be popular. What actually happened was my awkwardness became more apparent. (Similar to seeing someone walk in heels when they've never worn them.)
The second time I tried to define perfection was in my career. I sat behind a computer screen with excel opened, creating formulas to predict my salary over the next 10 years. I was 22 and had no idea where my career would lead. My formula produced a chart where my salary went neatly up and to the right.
I met my career goals in 8 years instead of 10 but by no means was it the simple straight line I created as a recent college graduate.
I recently fell in love with the classical arrangement "2 Arabesques: Arabesque No. 1." I listen to Amazon classical playlists and every time this plays I instantly feel at peace. Because it had such a profound effect on me I decided to research it and stumbled on this beautiful video of the notes as they play.
The first time I watched this I was struck by how much this looked like a graph I was all too familiar with; my own life. The piece is filled with chaotic ups and downs that come together to create beauty, the lower points producing the richest parts.
I have long since abandoned my perfectly formulated charts and instead followed my heart.
When I hear this song I feel peace and I believe it's because I have learned to embrace my own ups and downs and see the beauty in them.
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